Looking from childhood to now this has been one of my biggest problems I have wasted my time on, I get fixated on finding, ranting over etc. over things I have lost or misplaced, n it's one thing after another I feel super irritated and inconvenienced and then can't focus on what I need to do, I misplace and forget things often but what makes it worst is I live with my family mom dad n Little bro, I work slowly and at my own pace so many times my mom cleans/ organizes my stuff( Even when I tell her I will do it at my own schedule or pace she can't wait n does it) and keeps it somewhere else which sometimes is helpful but very problematic as well bcz it bcms difficult for me to find them, and then at times family members using my stuff and keeping it somewhere else, small eg. I kept my pen with notepad( notepad had small rubber attachment to attach pen ) left it at living room table at night, it's not there in morning, when I complain my mom's like u must have forgotten or not kept it there u always do that and blame others which is true that à I tune out miss place and forget things like that often, n yes there are other pens I can use but that is most comfortable to write with and I clearly remeber it putting it with notepad I am making lot of effort to remeber and organize, so later I came to know my brother took that pen, now I could have completely written what I needed to write with another pen but instead I fixated on this pen, finding it, could get relief only when I called and asked my brother if he had the pen n he said yes, but this small thing completely distracted me and made me distressed. Also things like these make me feel like I am going crazy bcz yes I do misplace things but when my family members shift them they don't understand how big of a deal it is for me specially my mom they keep insuinating that I am the " crazy" one and all of that was okay for long bcz of multiple factors but I am really struggling alot with multiple things right now and I am really struggling with trusting myself sometimes small things like these make me feel if I can ever trust myself even with the smallest things I already have this fear of being delusional and I am really trying to get organised and I need time and space but it's difficult, I have realised when I was alone at home when my mom and brother were at relatives I was functioning much better at my pace getting lot more done not feeling as anxious , but with my mom she just can't be understanding of my mental or physical health even when I am sick with flu , her constant screaming at me for chores or for " silly" " tuned of" " forgetful" mistakes I make , makes me anxious and make even more mistakes. There's a lot more to it but I don't have time to elaborate, in short I can't expect any support from my family in terms of understanding adhd I have tried and for the time being atleast I know it's not possible their lack of empathy understanding mocking and dismissiveness regarding adhd has just bought emotional distress for me I can't afford medical help either right now it will take a lot for me to explain adhd to them they are not at all educated in that regard they don't even think it's exactly real so apart from talking to them about this tell me something I can do by myself in the situation to Make this better for me. Especially how to not get much bothered when I am not able to find things instead of fixating on it to find best possible alternative solution etc. and move on with day