Hello, I’m In need of dire help to manage my bipolar and or ADHD. My psychiatrist has prescribed clonidine / Trileptal to manage my gift, but I’m unsure if this will be a good combo for my issues. During my manic episodes, I have an incredibly inflated ego, increased sex drive, racing thoughts, overspending, overeating, and extreme irritability. On a day-to-day basis, I have extreme difficulty focusing, bad social anxiety, which affects my social life as I seem like an asshole in public and unable to approach women (never understood why), getting work done, and terrible memory (short and long term). Originally was prescribed clonidine (.1mg) and Wellbutrin, but this combo left me extremely anxious, empty and scared to leave my house because of this. I then was prescribed just .1mg clonidine and 150mg Trileptal but never took the combo as I read up on the side effects of Trileptal and was drawn away, so I stopped taking meds, felt great, and then began having a few manic episodes, along with occasional moodiness and still unable to get anything done, just felt like I can’t control my time per usual. I then purchased 30mg Vyvanse pills off a friend to see how ill feel off a stimulant, I was taking two a day, and I’m getting a ton of work done, more creative/productive, genuinely feeling better than ever as I feel as if I feel like myself and feeling that I can finally control my time. The only issue is that my shirt term memory deteriorated, and unable to remember words and such from the past. Today took 130mg of Trileptal and 30mg of Vyvanse and felt good but not motivated as I felt sleepy, and after the sleepyness sore off just felt very moody and on edge. So all in all, with this post, the experiences I’m seeking help on what may be the best drugs for me to help me as I’m ok with being bipolar, I want to be motivated, get work done and finally be able to sit down read a book and understand it without forgetting what I just read