I was a straightedge man when I was younger. At 17 I was criticizing my brother for smoking cigarettes. 7 years later I'm an alcoholic that smokes cigarettes and low-key think about going back to doing shit like cough medicine. The thing that initially threw me over the edge was, I had a daughter. Since I was very young I always dreamed of having children and being a good parent. Shortly after her mother had her daughter she left me and I felt like I would barely ever see my daughter again. It really fucked me up and I started to develop worse and worse habits. And currently I've sick of the lifestyle I've adopted over these past 6 years or so. I want to be better, for myself somewhat but mainly I just want to be better for my kids. Has anything like that ever happened to you and how did you healthily handle it? Coping is very hard for me because I've lived depressed since I was a child. But I want to be better. Any advice on how to cope healthier then being drunk by 3 pm? Please, leave me a message or comment.