I hate this shit!!!!...... I don't even know why I use anymore!?!?! I don't enjoy it and the comedown is absolutely unbearable, it's like newtons law for fuck ups, anything that can go wrong does go wrong...... I feel like fucking chicken little "the sky is falling, the sky is falling!!!!" Everytime is the last time but it seems like I always end up right back here!!!!...... Ugh, fuck me running..... rant over, thank you for "listening" that is if you're still there, wish I wasn't at the moment, I just wanna sleep and go someplace else for a little while maybe, dunno tho, my dreams have been craft lately too, I wake up exhausted just about every morning lately because I don't even get any rest when I sleep....... Doesn't help that I have some jackass trying to sleep in his car out in my driveway, someone thought it would be a good idea to drop acid before he came over. After a couple lines and a decent shot of some high quality powder and he was giving me crazy anxiety, so outside he sits until he is sober enough to drive...... Okay now I am done, thank you and goodnight.......