Hey everybody this is my first Reddit post and I’m just trying to put it all out here and maybe get some support or advice from people with similar struggles. I took my first Percocet a year ago and since then it has pretty much consumed my life.

I’m in college, an honors student and have been a good and hard worker my whole life. When I started percs, it was a casual sometimes thing that I did with my boyfriend at the time. It didn’t take long for me to really start craving and wanting them and about a month or two after the first perc I took it became a daily thing. It’s now a year later and I’m trying to get off of them, or at least wean down and it’s proving to be way harder than I ever thought. My grades have tanked, my social life has disappeared, I’ve lost friends and gotten very distant from family and I need and want to get better. I’ve felt my life and my future begin to slip away and my head is really telling me I need to fix this before it gets worse or it’s too late.

At this point I have a couple options. Open up to my family about my struggles and get help through therapy/rehab from them. My family lives in another country, though, and in order to do that it would upend not only my whole life (take me from friends, etc) but theirs as well. I’ve struggled with many mental health issues in the past and it has completely consumed and torn down my parents and I’m not sure I can put them through that again. Next would be to get help on my own, but every time I reach out to a therapist or psychiatrist it’s a long and difficult process and for one reason or another I end up not doing it. I could also just try to cut off the people who Use in my life here, but they’re a couple of my closest friends and my partner and that in itself would be super hard for me. I’m trying to find out how to heal myself but it’s hard living alone, without family, and without much of a support system at all where I am. I’m also worried if I cut out percs and oxy I’ll just move on to something else.

Idk if anybody will respond or give advice, I’m not even sure there’s much to give. If anything getting this off my chest was the biggest thing so thank you in advance if you have any words to help.