Okay so some backstory, well long story short my life fell apart a year ago, lost my kid, job, apartment, went to rehab, lost second apartment, probation violation, 6 month jail sentence, and now in a run down motel getting high every day and "getting my shit together". So why can't I get my shit together?! Felt so good coming home from jail, was locked in my cell 60 days while I was there and went on this mental journey of self discovery..... Had a plan when I came home and was determined to get my life back, yet here I sit. Naked in a motel with my bug out "best friend" waiting on my next hit. I am in a bad spot mentally today. I really am sick of all this bullshit and want to do what I need to do to get my life back but at the same time I am stuck and really can't just walk away like I know I need to and today really want to....... Ugh, I am a total piece of shit!