Okay so I’ve been off of weed and nicotine for a solid 3-4 months and just recently I started drinking. I had a birthday party with friends and since I don’t smoke anymore I just wanted to drink. Ever since then I’ve had a problem with alcohol. I recently poured half a bottle of vodka from the bar from my work into a styrofoam cup after my shift no one saw me do it and their aren’t cameras at the bar. Tonight I stole 4 cigarettes from my manager and no one saw me do that either but I still feel so guilty for stealing from my work and my manger. I don’t want to steal to feel something I don’t even know why I smoke nicotine I just don’t know why I do it. I smoked 2 cigarettes then threw the other 2 back cause I was ashamed of what I did and I wanted to get better but I still have some vodka left over.
I wanna stop smoking and drinking overall but I don’t know where to start. Sorry for the long message but I wanted to get it off my chest.