i’m sorry for the rant but i need it. i’m only 20 and have fucked myself so many times, i’m addicted to coke and drinking and that’s whatever but i lost my license for 9 months because i just had to to go get coke and then i got tboned and since i had empties in my car i fled and now i’m really fucked. i talked to my lawyer today and she said the worst i could get i a year in jail and honestly i deserve it but ffs man i wouldn’t have even been there if i wasn’t getting coke like i’m freaking out and ofc my stupid ass is on coke rn it’s 6 am only one up out of my friends after the bar i’m just so sick of myself man. and i can blame genetics my dad, grandpa, grandma we’re alcoholics and my other gma was a gambler but like why can’t i just break the cycle like fuck me im pissed. thank you and sorry again for the rant have a good weekend everyone