I’m going to start with saying that addiction runs heavy in my family so I am hyper aware of this stuff and this is a half vent half need advice thing lol

I’m not sure if I have an addiction to alcohol. I’ve only ever had like, maybe 15 drinks in my life and that’s a super high estimate for me. I don’t like the taste, I don’t seek it out but I enjoy the feeling it gives me. I havent turned to it when I was upset but the first time I drank was after a panic attack (not on purpose, it just happened that way). I have a rule that I cannot have alcohol if I’m upset in anyway, if the reason for having whatever the drink is “because it’s here and it’s yummy” I don’t have it. I was thinking that I could just give it up but a small part of me didn’t want to. I’m just worried about it tbh.