Looking for success stories because I’m feeling defeated right now.

I was prescribed Wellbutrin which was hell for me gave me insane anxiety felt like I could barely breath. I tried to stick it out as I saw some said it would pass it never did. I quit cold Turkey after a little over 3 months and I was fine.

I did multiple tova adhd tests for adderall with my dr and we finally found a good dose of 15mg twice a day. I felt good for a while very motivated, happier, we were thinking my depression was just undiagnosed adhd.

It’s been about 5 months of the adderall and now I’m just feeling down all over again. Maybe it’s lost it’s affect? The past week I’ve just realized how insanely unhappy and unmotivated I am, I barely even laugh, can’t find joy in things. I feel like I’m just waiting for the day to pass by, nothing is fun anymore, I don’t enjoy playing with my son anymore and I feel so angry, irritated, defeated all the time etc.

I hate feeling this way.

EDIT: I’ve taken a break from my adderall prescription as some recommended. It’s been almost 4 weeks. The first 4 days I stg I was a complete zombie wow I could get nothing done,all I wanted to do was sleep. I will say my mood has increased a slightly- I am less snappy but I’ve been having such a difficult time working at my same high level. Not focused as much and it takes so much out of me to get even the smallest things done. But I do feel a little happier. I decided to take an adderall the other day cause I had a lot of work to do- I felt great and I got so much done but it’s like I wanted to keep working and I realized how I get so irritable with my son for small things like way more annoyed then I would with him not on it. It’s as if I’m so hyper focused on all the things I need to do I can’t go have fun and when he’s not listening I basically have less patience on adderall. If any of that makes sense does anyone else get this way?