Got a couple of questions for you guys and it might be an easy answer but I feel like typing so I'll ask anyways. I'll keep this as short as I can (we all know how that goes).

Brief background: prescribed Adderall IR 20mg 2x daily for about 10 years now. At first I took it only when I needed it in college. I actually hated it to be honest. When I say I rarely took it I mean I was prescribed 60 tablets and at the end of the month I probably had 50-55 left over. Fast forward to about a year ago when I got into a little bit of a cocaine habit out of no where. It went from casual to bingeing to obsession very quick. It then occurred to me that I have all this extra Adderall because I kept filling the prescriptions even though I didn't take it. I realize and fully understand that they are completely different but still a dopamine rush. When it comes down to it I think I might be somewhat dopamine deficient or at the very least I have screwed up my dopamine system. I quit cocaine and replaced it with Adderall because it made me more productive and less occupied with wanting to do a line every 5 minutes. During the past year I've had times where I abused it sure and times that I was snorting it yes but always kept up with harm reduction and research about how to take care of your brain. I know its not full proof but I was taking and still taking vitamins, supplements, staying hydrated, eating etc etc. I would use at minimum 2 times a week (sometimes days/weeks at a time) when I know I needed it. I quit taking it for 30 days because I decided a tolerance break was needed and moved to a different state so was able to distract myself from it with the move.

However, on day 30 (June 4th) I randomly decided to take some to get some things done and since then have been using it again like before. I have noticed though that my tolerance is still very high but I am more on edge than I was when I was taking it before. I also was able to eat on it before but now it seems like I am back to it being damn near impossible to eat. I also feel like I get burned out after just 2 days of use where like I said before I would take it everyday for weeks and not get this feeling. Also instead of 1 20mg IR tablet 2x a day I space it out by taking 1 20mg IR in the AM and then splitting the other and taking 10mg first part of the afternoon and 10mg the later part of the afternoon and then if I really need to I will take another 10mg later on since I have extra.

I apologize for the rant. All that being said here is my question(s). Has anyone else experienced this after an extended break? Was my break not long enough? Am I just over thinking this situation? How do I get back to where I was before with being able to take it and eat? Anyone have any tips or tricks that have worked for them? I don't necessarily want to take/abuse it like I was before I just want to know that if I do decide to take it that I won't have issues (which I know is subjective). It's possible I just need to seek alternatives to prescription stimulants and cut out my Adderall usage all together.

Again sorry for the rant. If you got this far thanks for reading my rambles.