Hi all, Currently conflicted with my Adderall usage. Some background. I have used marijuana, benzodiazepines, opiates, shrooms (only about a handful of times), cocaine, molly (twice) and other various substances like high dosages of DXM and DPH. I also within the past year have been using various supplements to help with certain things and trying to be overall a healthier person. I never took Adderall or any other stimulants until I got into college and needed it. I was then prescribed XR 10mg 1-2x daily as needed. After speaking with the doctor and him asking questions it finally made sense that this whole time from grade school and up I had a mild form of ADHD. I used Adderall as prescribed but not everyday, only when I needed it for school. I actually hated it and all stimulants but I made it through. I’m more of a downer guy. Long story short I stopped using when I graduated but still filled the prescriptions. I found myself in a job where I was getting well paid and life was good. All I did was smoke herb and take my prescribed Klonopin as needed. Then I fell back into the cycle of Opiates. I had the money to burn now so I became addicted taking anywhere from 60-100mg of anything but usually OCs and of course the usual hydrocodone and percocet daily. I detoxed myself after a 4 year daily heavy habit with Kratom and other supplements. However, all I did was replace my addiction with Kratom and that became a problem. I then ended up just dropping Kratom and going back to pills for another year after being clean 236 days. I decided to quit again 06/08/2017. So tomorrow marks Day 30. Adderall has helped me through the initial phase of withdrawal by giving me energy and motivation to do things again. It also lifted any feelings of depression that I had lingering. I also have used a significantly less daily dose of Kratom. Although I won’t consider myself officially opiate free until I am done with Kratom (I know it’s a better option but it can still be addicting for some) I don’t know what to do about my Adderall usage. I don’t want to rely on meds to keep me going. I’m pretty sure if I just get over the hump of not using it I can make it through to the other side and hopefully not use them again. I am prescribed 20mg IR 2x daily but sometimes I abuse my script because I have so many of them from days of not using it so I can. I would rather not be on an amphetamine medication but as you all know it helps so much! It has helped me end my usage of all other substances. I now only take Adderall, some Kratom, my prescribed Klonopin, as needed, and cannabis. Adderall has helped me regain social confidence, complete tasks instead of starting something and then moving on to another, focus on the needs of others and myself, not nap or feel tired all day plus another whole host of problems that it has helped with.

We are all different when reacting to meds but I was just curious if anyone had a similar story with Adderall and successfully switched to a non-stimulant med and had the same benefits as Adderall without the stimulant effects and side effects. I don’t want to discontinue my Adderall use to only go on autopilot and wind up using Opiates again or abusing other stimulants. I don’t suffer from ADHD severely like some so I know I can lead a life away from medication but after using one its hard to see a functioning world where they don’t exist. I would like to have a non-stimulant option on hand in the event I do feel symptoms coming on then I know its at least a little safer of any option. Any suggestions? Rant over