Don't tell her I said that.

Actually she's my ex, and because of how things ended I have resigned to just silently sitting here with butterflies in my tummy because I'd feel so wrong about trying to initiate a relationship with her again. I was the one who broke things off, bc the father of my children managed to convince me we could keep our family together and in my desperation to do good for the children, my dumb ass really ended a good relationship to go back to that mess. Even though I'm FUCKIN' GAY (I'm a late bloomer who got married before I figured shit out). And she was just absurdly understanding and stayed friends with me despite my completely making a damn fool of myself??? So now yeah, I still have MAJOR feelings for her, but y'know. It is what it is.

Anyway I recently had an emergency with one of my kids and she instantly showed up for me and saved the day??? It was dreamy.

Wow Girl In Red, you get me rn.

EDITED TO ADD: I now realize I didn't clarify this--I broke things off with the dad for good as soon as I recognized I'd made a big mistake. He and I have been through for quite a while now.