Phew. Y'all. I've got absolutely no business out here crushing on my ex like this.

Okay, to be fair, she is gorgeous, talented, hilarious, kind, confident, independent, and has emotional intelligence for days. But she's pretty much the one person who I feel like I can't just tell her I [still] have feelings for her. We broke up about a year ago because, due to life circumstances I won't get into rn, I ended things for reasons that were not at all sensible.

And she understood me and has shown nothing but empathy this whole time! She just 100% took it in stride, knowing I was not making a healthy or good choice but realizing she couldn't stop me. But empathy does not equal simply forgetting that I acted fickle and unreliable and that shit was not attractive. So. I simply don't feel right approaching her about my feelings. I'm just here to tell y'all I'm a fuckin clown 🤡