Oof- I don't even know how to start this. And during pride month too? That's embarrassing lol. Damn. I'm just going to go on a little rant. It's not specific to my ex but you know she's the most recent so. Fuck you..... respectfully.

I have been told many many many times relationship after relationship that I will make someone a great girlfriend just not them? It's absolutely amazing how I have no one in my life no friends no family barely a home and I somehow still give up my love so fast. I wait patiently I take things slow and I still get fucked over. It's so beautiful. If huuuurts but here I am still pining to give someone love because I know I'm ready. I'm ready to settle down, I'm ready to be mature and communicate, I'm ready to for a person to grow with. When will it be my time for someone to remember what I like to eat, to remember my favorite color, to remember I am very strong but have a sensitive side, who will go on picnics with me, who will surprise me with flowers and I don't have to ask, someone to spend birthdays with me so I won't have to spend them alone again for the 21st year in a row. Yes this is the big one. I thought I was going to be in a relationship for. I guess not. But I digress. Anyone want to be my friend for a little while.....I could use one.