So I work for an LGBT positive company. We have pride displays, pride apparel for the staff, my boss is gay, and several people up in the company are gay. It's great.

But lately, I've been facing a lot of homophobia at work. I had a coworker tell me that I talk about being gay like those memes of vegans talking about being vegan. All because I said the word lesbian (my friend/ other coworker who I was actually talking to had misread "legends" as lesbians, and she's bi. I was teasing her for misreading it.)

I admit, I more or less told him to shove it up his ass.

Then one of my managers, who vaguely heard all of that, told me that it was too controversial for me to be gay at work.

Shit like this happened last year. It was my first pride and I found this shit posted to the inside of my locker. Im trans and i had just cut my hair into a side shave. I was told they never found out who did it. I'm pretty sure I know who did it, but I can't prove it so that doesn't matter.

I also had to deal with a coworker telling me that gaydar isn't a thing and being hyper aggressive with me for months before management stepped in and made sure we didn't work together again... until recently where we have worked pretty much every shift together again. It makes me fucking sick. Not really surprise as to why I had a massive panic attack at work. Whatever.

But I can't say anything about any of this. Because "we all have to work with people we don't like". I'm just expected to smile and take it. I'm not allowed to be upset about any of this shit long term and they have been forcing me to work very closely with people who have historically attacked me simply because I'm gay or trans. I feel like they have been doing me dirty. So I'm on paid vacation starting today while I think about whether or not I want to look for a new job, or if I want to stick it out and try for a management position in a month or two.