I have been with the same boy for two and a half years now. I love him more than I love myself and I can't imagine life without him I honestly can't. I have always struggled with sex between us though and breaking down barriers and walls, not just betwee us but with my own sexuality as well. I'm still young so. I have never been able to orgasm from the sex between myself and my boyfriend and up until recently it was something that bothered me to my core. It no longer has that affect on me as I started opening up more. Now that I'm more open, I realized that the only thing that gets me off is lesbian porn, or fantasizing, erotic stories, whatever. I still enjoy sex with my boyfriend but, like when I even see lesbian activity or anything I just feel something inside of me. Like it is very different than the feeling I get being with my SO. I haven't ever kissed a girl or touched one sexually. It never came up. I don't really care if I'm bi or lesbian or straight or somewhere on that spectrum. What I care about is how can I tell? How to I figure out my sexuality without ruining the amazing relationship I'm already in. The sex is satisfying enough but I just crave sexual contact with a female. What do I do? My boyfriend is open to a threesome but I don't really want a threesome, I mean I do but, it wouldn't satisfy me. I want to have sex with a female, just us, just to see way I'm feeling. I know I sound ridiculous, and the answer is to just break up or go on a break, but I don't even know how to find a girl. I can't guarantee my SO will let me experiment. It's driving me insane. Please help.