So I met the cutest girl online and we had been talking for a couple weeks before we finally met. Our first date was intercepted by all the places we wanted to go being closed so we ended up at mine, and because we had been having video calls and texting for some time we felt comfortable enough to have sex and cuddle.

Prior to me being with women, I had been in relationships with men and I never felt comfortable cuddling them, and obviously the sex wasn’t good. But mostly the cuddling was NEVER satisfying. I never felt comfortable and I felt extremely self conscious. In fact after sex I’d tell them to leave, or make excuses that I’m hot so I wouldn’t have to have that sort of contact with them.

Anyways, for the first time EVER I felt comfort whilst holding and cuddling this woman I’m seeing now. She made me feel so good (apart from the sex). Holding her and being held by her was so disarming and my body felt so relaxed. And I used to think I didn’t like cuddling at all before. Now, it’s all I think about.

After the first time we cuddled I felt COMPLETELY drained. As if all my energy was sucked out through a straw and I was just sleepy and eepy and unable to stay awake. I thought this was my body shutting down after having been touch starved for almost my whole life.

Has anyone else every experienced this? Being completely unable to function after finally meeting someone who allows you to just be?