When I met her we were both in toxic relationships. We became fast friends and I knew that I had feelings for her after the first month of knowing her. I'm not a homewrecker and neither of us were in an open relationship so I decided to keep a lid on my feelings. Fast forward a couple months and we had both ended our previous relationships and gotten together.

I had never fallen in love with someone so fast or so hard before in my life. It's not an exaggeration to say that she was literally everything that I had wanted in a partner, but never got. We were on the same page about so many things that we wanted out of life and I honestly thought that I was going to settle down with her. Like, we talked so much about starting our own family and our future in general.

But a few weeks ago she told me that she didn't want to be with me anymore. I bawled my eyes out and begged for a chance to work on us, to try to fix whatever was wrong. She cried a and told me that she loved and wanted to work on us and that she'd just need a little space to sort through things. So I gave her her space and was hopeful that we'd be back on the mend in no time. However, a few days into giving her space, she blocked me on EVERYTHING. I couldn't get in contact with her and it broke me. I've been a crying mess for the last few weeks.

There's a big hole in my heart, but it's getting better. I'm just still in such disbelief that she want full no contact like that after everything that we had. I think what hurts the most is the finality of it and the lack of closure, that I can't even have her in my life as a friend.