My gf said she wants to break up with me yesterday. I don't know where else I can share my story. She's a fucking bitch. All that time she made me feel like I'm dirt under her feet, I told her about my problems in life and she never fking care and she was annoyed when I cry. She broke up with her last bf cause he had depression and I always carried fear that the same will happen with me, if I cry too musch in front of her.
We are in poly relationships, we lived together and now she left for a while to her boyfriend's appartment. I don't have any other partners to go to. And I'm tired of girls leaving me for the ugliest men in the world.
I have some problems with alcohol (it never affected anyone but me, i never did anything awful to other ppl while being drunk, i usually just cry myself to sleep). I binged alcohol for two weeks now since she treated me like shit. I hate alcohol. I don't want to drink, but I want to get lost completely and don't think about anything. I cant do anything I'm completely overwhelmed.