I always find myself dissecting movies or shows to find the deeper meaning of things. This I know comes from my love of literature. Not so much the writing part but how certain literary devices shape scenes that are used to create a complex web of a characters persona.

Today I watched SCREAM VI with Jenna Ortega playing one of the lead characters, she is 20yo and 5’1. I am 19yo and 5’5(male). I don’t know… I guess watching her act in Wednesday and now this (along with growing up watching her on Disney), I’ve been feeling like I might like acting?

I’ve always like film, especially people’s reactions to film and their interpretations of it. I’m actually starting a YouTube channel right now and looking at it from a distance I guess I like performing for people too. I love the editing process and planning everything in my head. Again though, as a libra I like the attention and eyes on me. Front and center.

I am very much all over the place… I’m in college for engineering (though I’m realizing I hate math), and at the same time I’m planning on taking this YouTube thing very very far…

I am lost to say the least. Either I have too many aspirations or the film industry is where I want to be. Idk but the old me would say I’m into STEM or something.

When I think about it.. these actors I look up to took yearsssss to get to where they are, so why would I expect any less? I guess that’s doubt talking but it’s true. I don’t know if it would be right for me. I know less of where to start. And I’m scared to leave whatever path I’m on right now if it might lead to a dead end.

How did you guys start? Is it too late for me? Am I too short? (Lmao)