I think I reached the point all abused and neglected kids get to when they realize that this is their life. Their parents aren’t changing. The point when they make a choice that shows you were their priorities are and you can feel yourself shatter. When you realize that you are an inconvenience. Your health, your needs, your personality is just an inconvenience. You won’t ever do anything right or ever be enough. I feel alone. I have friends and a partner but they are online. I’m gonna work my ass off to learn to drive, to finish school, to save up, all of it so as soon as I can I’m gone. With nothing left in this house. Not my help, not my love, not anything of me will be left. I will be gone and they will have to deal with it.