After coming to terms with all the abuse i went through with my mother, I see my dad's actions has neglectful.

He would cheat on my mum get into fights and then leave me alone with this violent person in a rage episode, all the drinking, never being home, he doesn't know anything about me and he doesn't try. All he cares about is me being "normal" even though i have mental illness from the abuse they put me through. He doesn't hold accountability to any of the abuse I went through... He's never taught me anything and doesn't care to even if I ask.

I truly hate him.

How do I come to terms with the fact that neither of my parents hate me, don't care for me and that I will never be enough for these people.