I found out Monday I was pregnant on birth control. My appointment for a consult for an MA was Wednesday. There I learned I was 9w 5d. MA to begin Friday.

Well, I have been nonstop moping, weeping, reading about the matter online, and looking at the dreaded pictures under google images wondering…ANYWAYS. I’m a nurse so I understand loss and grief. However, I was triggering/upsetting myself more intentionally searching these things and baby quotes for baby loss….Thankfully my husband told me to get it together (lovingly, as he knows it’s what I want to do) that I can’t completely succumb myself to a really dark place especially not by bringing myself to the dark place. So I guess what I’m saying is try not to make yourself more upset than you truly have to be, if this makes sense. Yes grieve, yes feel it, yes take your time in doing so. But don’t kick yourself while you’re already down!! I’ve had my first good day since learning I was experiencing an unwanted pregnancy. Take care all. Hugs.