Iowa/Minnesota - I have been overly stressed the last couple months. I don't know if this had an impact on what was going on or not. But I didn't want to abort. I knew I had to. And finally accepted it. I was dreading every second. My friend drove me 4 hours north and the appt was fine. They drew blood and I got woozy. I thought, "I must have really bad anxiety" and then wham. I passed out. I had to be transported by ambulance to a hospital where I spent two nights in Minnesota. My friend had to leave and I felt so alone. Am ultrasound showed no fetal tones and baby had passed away 1-2 weeks prior. I felt sad. I also feel guilty that I'm feeling sad since I was planning on aborting. It's a strange uncomfortable feeling. I think I was dreading the abortion so much that I even hoped maybe I would miscarry. I thought I did earlier on due to a SCH, but ultrasound verified a viable embryo earlier on. Anyways- after confirming the pregnancy was no longer viable, I was told I had an infection, a fever, and my ferritin levels were at a 0 and my hemoglobin was at a 4. I had a blood transfusion (two of them) and then a d&c to scrape my uterus out. I was put on antibiotics and given fluids. They did give me a it of pain meds and anti anxiety meds because I'll admit, I had a few panic attacks. They did tell me that the ferritin and hemoglobin could have caused some of that. I did call the clinic because I ended up paying an additional 400 for the procedure. I initially made a prepayment of 900ish over the phone and then the other 400 at the start of the appt. (Due to gestational age). It seems cold, but I wondered about being possibly refunded since I didn't actually have the procedure done? Anyways. I wanted to share my story because I can't share anywhere else. Since the d and c I was told to go on "pelvic rest" for up to six weeks and took some time off work. My body feels really weird. I know the hormones are probably working their way, but I can't help but wonder if I caused the baby to pass away? I realize how dumb this sounds since I had scheduled the abortion, but it's all the overall guilt. This is a common emotion though right? Please tell me this is common or within the realm of normal. I'm feeling better, and I'm home now... which is great... but I feel weak and tired constantly.