I have this unshakeable fantasy that was born from my dating as a repressed Christian teenager. I’m not sure if it would be possible to recreate..

My gf and I would dry hump and grind with everything but sex on the table and over time we would inevitably come closer and closer to full on penetration. I remember how we’d wordlessly change our positions and paces so that the head of my cock would tease across her soaking wet lips and the exhilaration when it felt as though I would press into her inviting tightness instead of sliding past…

This went on for months, and countless orgasms until we gave in and fucked like animals. Life went on and we grew apart and went out separate ways.

I want to relive that experience. Now as a liberated adult I find that the taboo is lacking and even the best extended teases lack the forbidden nature. It’s hard to find someone who really wants to delay and although I love sex I am missing the intangible fear of god. Am I broken?

Is this just life passing me by? Does anyone want to strip down to our underwear, make out like teenagers and not fuck for a few hours?