I have found a clear hard lump in my breast yesterday night. I spend the whole day trying to get a hold of my GP, basically calling them when they opened, I finally got a hold of them at 5:30pm. When I explained my lump they gave me an appointment for tomorrow, i feel so stupid but I declined because of work and i just ended up agreeing for an appointment this friday. After I hang up it hit me that i’m gonna have to wait the whole week before I can have an answer, and it’s so hard to get an appointment where I live that if I cancel this one I might not be able to schedule another one this week.

It’s not just that, it’s also the fact that i don’t have anyone around me who I can go to, complain, vent, cry, ask to go with me, freak out with me. I’m 27, found a lump, when I talked to the nurse on the phone she went from normal voice to pity when I was explaining why I needed the appointment. I have cried myself to sleep yesterday and I feel like that’s gonna be me the whole week, i don’t know how im gonna go trough the tests and all on my own. I have never felt so alone