Hey all, I'm Alesha.
Trans witch, self taught. No coven to speak of and kinda between astrological and herbological work.

I...think I might have messed up in my youth. I don't remember the steps to it but there came a point when I was first learning that I needed to be unobserved and unnoticed. I didn't want people to be investigating me too hard and I wasn't really looking for companionship. I remember...calling out to be cloaked and to be unnoticed.

Now, I'm in my 30s and as I think on it, I regret this. Sure, it's probably saved my bacon at the cost of relationships - most fall apart because my partners kinda...forget about me... (that's not hyperbole) - and I find it difficult to get feedback on things like papers, writing and commissions. Literally this last semester ever paper I posted for peer review wasn't given any feedback and my professor multiple times forgot I was in her class.

I want to do something, anything, to undo this and be seen, even if that comes with risk...but I don't know what to reach out to or invoke. I tried researching on my own but it seems to be an uncommon issue or safeguarded by covens.

(Yes, I know that this post would have to be seen to get help but I'm doing what I can).

Any help would be appreciated.