I guess I'm really reaching out here to ask for help from people who can relate. Basically, the mother of my children is a very involved and focused witch. She started a social media presence, started a small business, and seemed to be genuinely enjoying the community and I was very happy for her. Until recently, that is. I need to leave the details vague, but we share several very young children 50/50. She was very adamant about being in charge of the medical decisions, which I did not contest. Well, I just got a letter from promedica saying our pediatrician, who has been the pediatrician for all of our children since always, dropped us because of too many no call/no show appointments. These are appointments she never told me about or else I absolutely would have helped with transportation. She has asked before and I've gladly taken them. This kind of lead me to check out her socials, which i have stayed away from doing.

I am now very confused. She seems to have adopted new views across the board, from race to medicine. I'm starting to get the idea that she adopted some anti-medicine views which is why she stopped taking our kids to the doctor. I really don't know what to do. As a small aside, she also adopted a hatred for white men (of which I am) and posts about it regularly, despite having mixed race children, including boys. I'm at such a loss of words right now. Shock, I guess it is called. Even tho we aren't together, I will always support her interests or whatever makes her happy. I'm a spiritual man myself. But, she thinks shes a star now on tiktok and I'm afraid its taken over her life to the point that shes neglecting our children. I watched a few of her videos and in some, you can hear my kids either crying in the background or saying "mommy mommy mommy" like begging for her attention. I really dont know what to do. I really dont even know what I'm asking here. I just want to be able to sleep at night on the nights my kids are with her, which ever since I discovered all this, I haven't been able to. My kids also frequently come home with injuries and I suspect she doesn't supervise the kids while theyre with her. She also has BPD she stopped treating. When I tried to bring up my concerns, she almost seemed to go manic and blocked me everywhere. I don't know what to do.