Can someone help me?

Hello. My name is Macy and I’m female who is 23 years old… if that even matters.

I’ve secretly been scrolling through this reddit page for years and can’t seem to find a dominant male to take me under his care and make me into something that I can’t even comprehend at the moment.

If you go read my past posts, you’ll see that I am somewhat of a lost cause. I left my wonderfully passionate and beautiful dominant because I got scared, but now I’m really lonely without his care and attention. I left my wonderful boyfriend because he treated me with respect and like a queen which just turned me off. I hated it. All I wanted him to do was spit on me and fuck me hard in all my holes… unfortunately I’m still a virgin.

I know what I want. I just don’t know how to get there and accept my place in the world. I want to be like all these lovely beta women.

Can someone please help guide me? I’m open to opinions and many options. Thank you so much ahead of time… it’s time Macy becomes the fat piggy she was always meant to be. That’s how I’ve thought of myself.