Soooo I’ve always had an irrational fear of doctors. I have no idea where it stems from but it’s absolutely insane and ridiculous. Every single time I have to go whether it’s for a cold or to get a cut taken care of or something like that. I always imagine the worst. I always imagine they’re gonna tell me I’m dying or something is wrong with me. I get super nervous When they do my blood pressure or pulse because I know they’re both gonna be super high. I went to the doctor this morning to have a boil lanced open and was so terrified that when I got there my pulse was 160. Then they always make it worse because they’re so concerned about how fast my heart is beating and I’m like don’t be concerned about it because that’s gonna cause it to be even faster like how about we just ignore it. I just wish that I could get over this fear because I know that there’s gonna be times in my life that I’m gonna have to go see doctors for things and I’m gonna end up, causing myself more issues with my high anxiety.