new Islamist immigrant ,18, coming from a conservative country with no ever interaction with males, here i got to use internet although i have parental lock on phone and similar restricts like no male friends or going out alone but got curious looking at the freedom white woman have.

i did starting having a explicit chat on computer with a white guy here(embarrassed to admit) who treated me with disrespect and called names but its a turn on for me,

Recently my dad said we can go to Vegas in fall i and i just shared it with him,

Now he wants to meet me secretly there, i have never touched a guy in life and scared and excited.Not sure whats the right thing to do ,i don't even know how i will mange to meet him secretly with family around but he says if i can share the hotel bookings and dates so that he can be on the same floor.

The idea of being treated rough and called names excites me but at the same time, scared as shit ,what if someone knows?is this a right thing to do?Will i bring bad name to my family?