Im 26f, 5’7 who was diagnosed with pcos at 13 through blood work. as soon as I hit puberty I developed pcos and immediately gained 80 lbs, weighing a whopping 221 at age 14. it got better with age, I lost some weight by eating drastically less and found that it really helped my symptoms. But I never went about things in a healthy way; I just restricted calories. I never worked out, I never really ate too healthy besides eating food my mother made me (she’s a pretty healthy eater). I would hardly eat for a long period of time, get super thin, but whenever stress or depression hit I always ended up going back to eating way too much and gaining all of the weight back.

It always starts off by gaining 10-20 lbs gradually , then that Pcos kicks in hard, my hormones go out of whack then within 3 months I’m 50 lbs heavier. Not even joking. My weight went back and forth for years, it’s weird because contrary to what most women with pcos experience, I can actually lose weight quick when I eat less (1,600 cals) but it’s also extremely easy for me to gain the min I eat more than that. My problem is that I eat unhealthy foods that don’t fill me or nourish me. I always end up pale and my hair thins.

i managed to keep it down to 150 for about 3 years until I got pregnant. I didn’t gain much at first but once I got into the 3rd trimester the pounds went on like crazy. When I gave birth I weighed in at 246. Once I had my baby I immediately went down to 230 and have stayed that way ever since (4 months PP) I have gained and lost the same 5 pounds over and over again because the “eat one shitty meal a day” method doesn’t work as easy while actively breastfeeding. My body CRAVES carbs and sugar more than it ever has before, it’s insane. I go days where I do good eating one big meal and a few snacked than within a week I’m binging, but I’ve decided I’ve had enough.

I feel like my weight and food have run my life. I’m so beyond tired of it, even at my thinnest I hated my body and was so tired of my unhealthy relationship with food. I’ve felt more motivated than ever to finally do things the right way, not only for my health but so I can finally love myself. I want the body I’ve always wanted but never had due to unhealthy habits. I wanna eat nutritious meals, I want to work out everyday cause I know it’ll improve my life greatly. I already cooked a good amount, but I’m slowly cutting out any type of fast food and just focusing on getting full off of healthier foods. It’s definitely the hardest part. I also got a gym membership and have been trying to start by working out everyday atleast 30 min, but I want to start working out for longer eventually. I’m finally ready and willing to work hard on my health and for a nice, lean, cut body but I feel like I don’t know where to start! I’m mostly just building my endurance on the stair masters , & other cardio machines but I want to get into weightlifting.

I’m pretty tall for a woman so I know I can get lean quick but my arms and stomach have always been a lot larger than the rest of my body ESPECIALLY my arms. I usually can get my stomach down pretty small but even at my thinnest I least have a slight apron belly. My arms I know are due to hormone imbalance and also genetics, my mother also has larger arms. But the hormones usually get better once I eat better and lose weight. I have small waist and ribcage/torso so it looks very strange with my disproportionately large upper arms. I really wanna focus on that and my back, and lower stomach the most. Any tips on workouts, YouTube channels, videos, etc would be so greatly appreciated!! I’ve become so obsessed with hating my body I want to switch that obsession with actually fixing it and myself. Thanks for listening.