I have been gaining weight for awhile now... I love the feeling of my body getting softer, my formerly flat chest swelling and developing into moobs, and the fact I have a soft, jiggly gut now.

Now alot of people who see me and support me ask the question "just how big are you wanting to get."

And well, I have a number in mind... But... If I'm being honest nothing gets me going more than the idea of somebody else having a number in mind.

I just love the idea instead of being asked how big I want to get, they tell me how big they want to make me. I love the idea of my body becoming somebody's project. I especially love it if they even take control over my calorie intake, feeding me even if I'm groaning and painfully full because "I want you to eat more. I don't care if you're full."

I especially love the idea of getting to a point I think I am too fat, I want to stop, and they tell me it's not my choice to make and they are going to keep me eating and growing and eating and growing.

I just can't stop thinking about the total seizing of control over my body's weight, size and input by someone else.