I didn't use to be fat. In fact, I would say it's only been the last two years of my life that I've grown to a size I'd truly consider heavy and fat.

Honestly before I was fat, I never liked what I saw in the mirror. But now that I'm 260 I can't get enough of looking at myself and thinking "Jesus Christ I:m big."

I started showing my body online and a lot of people actually seemed into it. Complimenting me, telling me how sexy I am and all in all making me feel great.

There's been a much smaller minority though... The kinds of people who send me messages like "You need to learn how to put a fork down" or "Jesus Christ you are huge!"

I love these messages. I don't know why, but degrading me just short circuits my brain. I can't help it.

Anybody else feel this way?