I've always been historically bad with budgeting and saving money. but I am finding trying to budget money for stuffing is impossible. for example, last weekend I planned to binge this weekend, and was like "ok you'll need like $35 to order enough food. save that." and then, come Friday I literally have negative money in my account, from eating throughout the week, transit money, and WORST OF ALL SCHOOL FEES because secondary education is a drain on anyone's expenses.

it's hard because I know I need to spend money on necessities but I just want to eat 😭. but I don't want this hobby to take over my life to the point where I'm in financial ruin. my parents give me money for schooling but it's troubling when I have to keep asking for money for actual school expenses since I spent the alloted money on food 😪. I could get a job that would get me discounted/free food since that's how I gained a lot of weight the first time, but with school I'm not sure if I should push myself to work super hard just to fund my food addiction. and I know there's a lot of people into feederism shit willing to pay to watch ppl eat and stuff but I'm not the kind of person to beg for money, and I wouldn't be able to give them anything in return.

my college doesn't have a meal plan so I can't just get unlimited food :-( so I try to go for cheap/filling foods like pasta and ramen/instant noodles. but my favorite part of gaining is the humiliation part so I love getting fast food and that's like my kryptonite for keeping expenses down. I see lots of cheap meal ideas for fast food but it's all USA exclusive shit (curse you guys I really want that Taco Bell $5 meal 😭😭)

and more about college; on campus there's food everywhere. like I walk past maybe 5 vending machines between class to class, and 1 bakery with donuts staring at me through the display case. it's like they design the schools to make you gain weight.

so people who are into this hobby, how do you do it? especially college aged ppl with like no income. do I just say fuck it and look for a job? I might just switch to doing my groceries at the dollar store to make sure I always get junk food while keeping it cheap.