So, I posted on here a couple days ago about the wanting to fatten up a girl, and that still stands if your interested! (No luck yet haha)

But since then, I have done some roleplay about becoming the feedee to a dominant female feeder, and doing some mutual gain with that, her fattening herself and me.

Safe to say, I really enjoyed it, but l'm very conscious of my body irl and really want to be a fit guy. It's just, I can't help but love it when I think about a girl sitting on my lap, forcefully fattening me and calling me names.

I'm so confused (hence the title) and I don't know what to do! Should I just accept that I want a girl to make me fat, or should I try to be fit so I can love how other people think my body looks? I’m fat as it is already - not really fat, but just a bit. I’m currently trying to lose it, making this dilemma even more difficult haha