For context, I came from a 5yr relationship, my 1st wlw, been together right after college. I had bfs from hs and college. I didn't bother exploring more.

Since last year, I have been meeting people, men and women from r4r and bee app, casually, dinner/movie dates. Kinda like one meet and done. Hanggang ig viewers nalang ganon. HAHAHAHA

Mos. go by, I felt the difficulty in finding interest into someone. So I started exploring more about my sexuality. I knew I'm a demisexual but to what extent? What's my limitation?

From there, I started to meet people with the intention of having sex but getting emotionally connected first, of course!

I have tried 3 scenarios: 1st, 60% physical attraction, 60% emotional connection 2nd, 20% pa, 80% ec 3rd, 100% pa, 40% ec

Sadly, the outcomes are not giving 🤣 but I got a few moments of arousal from 1st and 3rd.

1st, since im not that attracted, I got disinterested. 3rd, Im really attracted to her (alam nya ha!), enough for me to imagine us living together. I KNOW! WATDAHEL! HAHAHAHA unfortunately, we're not on the same page, I wanted exclusivity, she just wants casual. Sad. HAHAHAHAHA

It turns out that I'm bi-sapio-demisexual.

PWEDE PALA YUN NO??? HAHAHAHAHAHA And physical attraction (includg intelligence) plays a big role not just emotional connection for me to be sexually atttacted. HAYYYYY

I envy people who can enjoy sex without emotional connection but I do appreciate demi people as well. Like WE ONLY WANT GENUINE AND PURE INTENTIONS ON YOUUUU but of course it's not that easy. 😵😵😵

Sharing this predicament before I go to bed. Good night. Happy Pride mga bading 🏳️‍🌈❤️