The long and short of this post is that a friend of mine linked me to an artist & author that creates essentially the antithesis to the vore content I enjoy but at the same time his work is incredibly high quality. This led to me getting ideas in a similar vein stuck in my head, unable to get rid of them and hating every minute of it. While I’ve gotten past it now, I’m curious to hear if others had similar experiences and how they’ve dealt with them.

Now for those interested in more details. I’m one of those people who enjoys their vore as wholesome friendly fun between friends. No one gets hurt and it’s all for the enjoyment of both parties. I haven’t ever struggled with accepting that vore is a fetish I have outside of that first wtf moment most go through. What I haven’t been able to get past is my dislike for the less wholesome flavours of vore. I can accept that they exist, and others enjoy them but it’s simply not for me. Always leaves me with a pit in my stomach or an odd feeling when the prey suffers or dies. This, for some odd reason, includes reformation.

Then, some time ago, I managed to befriend someone pretty much enjoys most flavours of vore and while it’s pretty obvious we got divergent tastes we get along swimmingly and even got some pretty fun rping going which was nice. One day he told me he found an artist that wrote really, really good stories. They weren’t quite up his alley either but as he said, “It’s like a train wreck, you simply can’t look away.”

He asked me if I wanted a link to check it out since I too write (shoddy) vore fiction and I decided to, for now, ignore his warnings and give it a look. I’m always looking to become less shit at writing, so I wanted to see what high quality vore fiction looks like. Safe to say, his description was spot on. I started reading, immediately developed a seething hatred for the two main characters but kept reading. After the first one I already knew I hated everything about these stories but also couldn’t deny they were written exceptionally well. They truly managed to capture me even though I hated them which is quite the feat.

The end of the story is that I read everything that author had published. Hating every story just as much as the next but I could never stop, too enthralled by his writing. I know hate is a strong word, but I think it aptly describes what I felt then. Normally I’m not a violent person but in my head, I had these violent torture scenarios unfolding, describing the things I wanted to do to the characters the author had created. After spending the next couple days with an odd feeling in my gut and generally being a much angrier person than normally, things eventually settled for the most part.

That is until one day, a few weeks later, my thoughts wandered back to me reading those stories and it caused some sort of spark that put ideas in my head for a story. The ideas were very much in the same vein as what I had read and caused much of the same feelings. I tried ignoring them hoping the ideas would go away eventually but they never did. My head kept circling back to them and for quite a while they’d take up large parts of my idle time, eventually growing into a full-fledged story of their own. Only after writing it out and rounding things off did I finally stop going back to these ideas. The result is a story I hate just about as much as those that author had written and I hate myself for writing it.

That self-hatred was probably the worst part of it. Whenever those ideas came back up, they’d bring up the usually well contained dislike for myself. I won’t get too much into it here but safe to say, I do not like myself much at all. And that story still stands as a monument to that. Then things for fine for a while until just earlier today my friend brought up that that author had published another drawing of his, warning me that it features what I’d expect. And so, I am sat here, another idea for the next cruel story in my head that has not been leaving me for the past few hours. It too brought the same feelings with it again like the first time I got ideas like this. Hopefully this time I won’t have to write it out to rid myself of these ideas but even if I do, I think I’ll draw some conclusions from this. I’ll simply have to avoid exposure to that specific artist in the future.

Now with all that said, I’m curious to hear if any of you ever had similar experiences to this, being exposed to content you don’t like and then ending up stuck with similar ideas in your head that won’t leave you alone. How did you deal with them? What triggered them? Generally curious to hear about your experiences and thank you for reading this page long essay on what should be a non issue.