Hi potential rescuer! ;)

I am glad that you found me.

My interests include art, (live) music, walking, skateboarding. I am also open to experience new things (e.g. if you have different interests). So I'm easy re what you want to do with me. I like going out but I also like staying home to relax. Also I basically like all kinds of food. Overall I'm an easy guy who doesn't complain and who tries to take life not too seriously.

I am friendly, respectful and won't be angry if we don't match (let's match though!). I have a MSc degree and my work is in finance. I am 1,90 m tall and I care about my health. Sometimes I paint, sometimes I play stage piano and I like gardening (<- and I have to lol). I am someone who likes being in nature as well as in a city. I also like doing 'nothing'. :) Relaxing on a bench in the city or in a park, daydreaming or enjoying a little sunshine.

Why I am still a virgin?

I have always hated my father (parents luckily divorced when I was young) and I got bullied as a teenager when I started receiving the highest grades. I also developed attention span difficulties due to the bullying and due to constant noise from annoying neighbours. This made high school and university sometimes quite stressful (even though my grades were good and I won some awards). Most of the time I felt like I was in survival mode. Of course I had fun with friends too. Like, I looked happy and women approached me but I was just not available/not on the market.

What I am looking for?

Since I see more friends getting children or getting married I feel like I have to do something now. I also bought a 200 m2 house. Never say never but it's plausible I'll be living there forever alone. That's kind of ridiculous.

But most importantly: I just feel like my mother and brother deserve more. He he, I am getting tears on my face while writing this. :) I achieved certain things in life that probably wouldn't have been possible without them. They are my everything.

I think meeting someone through this subreddit is the only proper way to lose my virginity or to do other sexual acts.

I've only had one date through r dirtyr4r and don't try it anymore. I have basically no chance there due to my inexperience. Women do sometimes flirt with me in real life. But the women who like me are looking for serious relationships now. And that seems just impossible for me. I never understood what love is. I mean, I love my mother and brother. But I can't understand the idea of wanting to love someone who is unfamiliar to me. That's most probably the result of having a bad parent and getting bullied (as I know a woman who thought the same until she met someone when she was 28 y/o).

Maybe I can change my view re relationships over time if I do find intimacy and sex fun. Everything is new for me so I'm very thankful if you can help me. :D