A sincere begging for an IRL commitment You can look at my old post, but it wasn't getting much traction, I'm going to try something else, a plea. See I still think I am Straight, I am still going to tell you I am with dying breath, but I need a firm guiding hand in my life. Because I am still a loser and a beta and a failed male. My pathetic cock will never please so I need to learn to use my body to please others. I know a lot of people will say admit your gay already, and if it's a part of your bullying and conditioning great it's a hot argument to make, but it's clear to me I have failed to explain or convince you properly if you say it sincerely. I like women trust me, I hate the idea of a man owning me trust me I ghost alot, I am also however scared to mingle with women. I also get off on the idea of being made to do something I hate because it's what someone else wants. I am asking you to ruin my life in making me psychologically bent to serve a man. I want to be in constant regret that I ever made this post that I ever was convinced to give you my address. Please understand it's not exactly play the way you think and I am offering you while a loser a real deal straight man who just so happened to be a failure. What that means is I need a master. A man who will force me to exercise, who will force me to please him even when I don't want too. I want to wind up your perfect bitch a man so well kept women fall in front of me and I tortured know it's not my place that it's both too late and that I will always be the loser who took a loser path. I don't intend to be bratty, but I know I'll need a push and then another all the way down your cock shaft. Convert me to cock teach me to like it, use Stockholm syndrome, hypnosis, beaten wife syndrome, my crippling lonelyness anything you need to get me to fall in love with the idea of serving you. Maybe that means humiliation and degration here online, maybe it means begging on my part. Maybe you also spend time really truly (pretending of course) saying you plan to "help me". The day we meet thought corner me in the room guide me gently to my knees and then pull out your phone and video. Ask me to say I want it, ask me to undo your belt and reveal your cock. Then as we have discussed here say nothing make me take the first and final step towards this path and I without your order kiss your cock head and start to suck. Doing it without the direct order is important because it will say to both of us that in the end in one form or another this was voluntary I chose this path when I could have worked harder to not be a fuck toy... From there you can end the recording and throat fuck me without mercy. Rest of the day I am working to please you enough to delete that video. You delete it but still threaten to reveal the truth, and make me your fuck toy on the dl for as long as you want. I will do whatever you need not to be exposed. Hopefully long enough to make me a better sub, healthier, hotter, but still always just as much a loser as I was the day I wrote/write this now. I want you to have fun tell me what you want to change or add. Please be a real life Dom, preferably a ripped twink with a huge cock and the intelligence and malice to make this as real as possible. Your not here just to fuck your here to ruin my life as a favor. Which means your detailed and don't just say hey, you enjoy the mind games as much as I fear them. Know of course I am NOT secretly super attractive and my dick is probably even smaller than your thinking. If that was the case I wouldn't have wrote all this. So be ready for the project hopefully that's fun for you. Hope to talk soon.