I have a problem. Honestly if you read my past posts I have a lot of problems but I'm going to focus on just one for now.

I don't do well with others at work sometimes. Most of the time in the past I just push down these negative emotions of rage and anger when people don't listen to me or think that I'm not in charge of them. Unfortunately, in the past year, I have lost my temper and acted out aggressively and lost a job I loved and walked out of another that I could tolerate. Yesterday was another of these melt downs. I have an ASM job and a subordinate who thinks he's God's gift to the world and that he doesn't have to do what he is told to do. Anyway I told him to stop doing something he wasn't supposed to and he said he was bored. I then told him to take out the trash and he said no and he had another employee do it for him. I told the other employee to stop but thety wouldn't. Then the other employee said that I was not his boss and I lost it kind of. Pupils dialated and I could hear the blood vessels in my brain shrink and pull. I called in a store ASM and it didn't go well. I left and locked myself in the bathroom so I didn't do anything worse and waited for my GM to show up. They did and they got things together sort of. The guy and his friend were written up and things were kind of ok. But then I had to meet with corporate management because the comments the store we were working at were severely bad and had reached the corporate level. Needless to say an hour of meetings, cleaning the office didn't go well and I didn't leave last night until 9ish.

Next day I wake up to complaints about how bad the store looked and how bad I was as a leader. Needless to say I checked myself into the hospital to not check myself into jail for loosing my temper. Now I'm out for 7 days but I need to figure out how to work on myself. The VA offered me training for cooperation. I tried to sign up with it but they didn't call me back until 1555 with number and no one answered that number so I have to wait til Monday. Still...should I go back or just...IDK...not?