Hi all!

I am a 100% P&T Military Sexual Trauma survivor. I was wondering if anyone knew what the program in Florida for MST was like. I am also open to other things I can talk to my VA provider about.

I do have a good medication blend and if I have nightmares and flashbacks it is normally related to being stressed. I generally have good emotional regulation in most cases.

I've just had a recent MST/PTSD related episode and I know my MST is putting a strain on my friendships and socializing with new people.

I've also done Prolonged Exposure and Cognitive Processing Therapy. Some of my issues is that I will make a new friend and I am trusting them because I feel like they won't touch me without my permission, however they did touch me without my permission and it took me 3 weeks to be calm/level-headed enough to have a conversation with the person about it.

I am also open to other things that can help me cope with not being triggered by friends/strangers touching me without my consent. It doesn't matter if it's a friendly touch or not, I don't like unwanted and unpredictable touch as then I have to normally do coping mechanisms if I'm touched unexpectedly...

This is also ruining my ability to just socialize in public spaces with friends sometimes too.

I did address the offense with my friend, but he seemed offended that I waited 3 weeks compared to me telling him sooner. I figured I would atleast do the right thing and speak up even if it was later... than let the friendship fray into the dust and he's wondering 6 months down the line why I won't spend time with him.

I also sometimes just don't have the social battery, bandwidth, energy, spoons, etc.

I adore my friends but sometimes it feels like my feelings aren't being considered by my friends and it hurts.

Anywho, thank you for those who have ideas and such.