It's been a year and a few months since my friends moved to a different school due to some issues. I wonder what would it be like if I went with them. I noticed far more frequently that for the past several months that I have been unmotivated and less interested in things I loved, I will rarely get back into only to fall back. On both sides try to keep the relationship going only through social media, but over things began to fade with the rare short conversations. I realized that after high school friendships die off like that sometimes and that's just the reality of it but I miss them a lot and with the new people I am hanging out with are pretty toxic but I am stuck here. I miss the jokes and the light teasing, enjoying shared hobbies or all the times spent I should accept this is my new reality that we might never be as close as we were before.