About a year ago was the beginning of the end.. my wife (25 f) of 6 years, best friend for 13 years decided I (28 m) wasn’t good enough and someone else was better.

My wife and I have know each other since we were 13/14 y/o. We met online as teenagers and talked every night. Eventually after I turned 18 and had a vehicle I chased down the one person I knew I wanted in my life forever. We started dating, we moved across country and back. Got married at (19 and 21), lived life working to build a future together. Generally speaking I always worked to pay the bills, she always had the option to work or not. Sometimes so would get a job so we could have extra money but never really attempted to build a career.

Around 2-3 years ago, we agreed to a poly relationship, she is Bisexual, as long as it was only with females and our marriage was always priority. She always had a higher sex drive than me and I just wanted her to get the affection she was looking for. It seemed to work out because she only had 1 gf and she always came home to me. Her gf would come over and hang out no big deal.

Last year, we decided to move to TX. Some of her family lived their and I got a promotion & raise to move. She wasn’t working. She wanted to find a new to spend time with while I worked, no big deal. But this time it was different.. this gf didn’t want to interact with me and wanted her all to herself. But wouldn’t respect my time and it began to cause arguments. This new person was planning on moving to DC after she graduated college so it was supposed to be a temporary relationship. So through all the arguments I kept trying to not push the issue because I didn’t believe she would ever move, she said multiple times that she wouldn’t want to.

Then after Christmas she got pregnant. The best thing to happen to me, we had been trying for years. But after getting over excited and telling everyone who would listen, she had a miscarriage. It was sad but I tried to support her as best I could. But she grew distant and started spending more and more time with her gf. About 2 weeks before gf was scheduled to move she told me she was falling for this person and actually considering moving with her.

I went into full panic mode, she had a list of things she felt I wasn’t doing correctly. Some was justified, putting in more effort like we were still dating. Other felt like she was trying to change me as a person. I made attempts and overcompensated in some areas because I didn’t want to lose her.

The final straw came after her bday & valentines. I went all out did everything I possibly could to show her how how much she meant to me. But even when it was supposed to be about us she brought up wanting to see her gf, which broke me. I took her their frustrated and I knew she was done. But she said she just wanted space. She stayed with her for 2 weeks, until her gf moved. Then she came home.

We spent the next couple days together saying she was sorry and wanted to make it work. That lasted 5 days.. once her gf found out she came back home to me they argued she gave up. Her mom came, picked her up and 2 weeks later she was flying to DC.

Now I’m blocked on most platforms and I get some updates about her from her family. I miss her everyday but I don’t know how to get over her..

Vent session over…