I guess this is “growing up”…I think about this lyric a lot. I’ve lost more “friends” than I have ones who remain. Honestly, the ones who remain are pretty distant too. I do feel like everyone’s gone, everyone’s left. I used to tear my hair out, be my own personal punching bag, when someone left my life or someone didn’t reciprocate my interest in being friends or dating. I didn’t realize it, but I had a lot of toughening up to do. That doesn’t excuse how I’ve been treated, but I’m learning to just say “fuck ‘em” and not care. But man did I have to go through Hell to get here, and it still sucks. I’ve realized how cold and careless people can be towards the feelings of others. I’m not bitter, I’m just kind of sitting here, sipping calmly on the bitter potion which has been loss and acceptance. I feel justified though. Back then, I lived for people’s acceptance until I realized that a lot of people are just inconsiderate and lack empathy. Now, I trust myself more, and I know that I didn’t deserve any of that treatment. They lost out of a great person who cares way too much about others. It still sucks; that lyric plays often in my thoughts: “everybody’s gone, and I’ve bern here for too long”. I’m scared to go out and meet new people, due to lingering damage and trauma, but I’m trying to get better and love myself