I feel lost. I live with my partner, 4 cats and 2 dogs and he's amazing. He's got a great work ethic, he always makes me laugh and he's genuinely the love of my life. But I'm frustrated about our financial stability.

I earn half of what he earns weekly but I find all of my money goes towards the house (groceries, power, our pets and even the diesel in his truck). I don't mind paying for these things as he does work full time while I study. What I'm getting frustrated with is the fact he spends all his money on 🍃 which I do smoke as well. And he often ends up asking to borrow money off me for things like cigarettes, had etc.

I did explain to him how it made me feel, as it's constantly stressing me out. Our animals are fine and fed because I will literally go without rather than them. But I just don't know what to do anymore.

I've tried making a budget, I've tried talking to him about taking a small break until we can catch up with bills but this is all met with resistance.

I've tried getting a job but his truck gives me a lot of anxiety about driving it as the gearbox in it is knackered. This was a truck we were both meant to have a say in as I was splitting the payments with him. He just brought it home no questions asked. As this truck was meant to replace my Subaru which had blown the gearbox. I told him multiple times we couldn't afford the payments and he didn't listen to me. We've now had it a month and he hasn't made a payment yet on it.

I just don't know what to do. I've tried explaining to him how I feel. I've tried explaining to him how we're stuck and we're gonna end up ruined. But he doesn't get it.

I have thought about leaving but I don't have anywhere to go and he'd try and keep my dog.

Sorry if this is all over the show. I just had to get it off my chest. I have no one to really talk to about this.