One of the most toxic and unwanted traits of mine, is crippling lust. I was in a relationship with a girl from the age of 15-17. At the time, she was the only girl I had went all the way with. Towards the end of our relationship, I became miserable, I had gained a lot of sexual confidence with her that kind of opened up my need for exploring. I don’t think that’s abnormal in any sense. I was young and dumb. Well we ended up having a threesome with my good friends older sister. (It was not my idea and I did not ask for it.) After I had done that, I no longer could control myself. Me and the older sister began hooking up in secrecy every other weekend. I eventually couldn’t handle the guilt and broke up with my girlfriend. My lust was at an all time high. I ended up having sex with 10 different women within the first 2 months of being single. It was fun, but it was often over complicating my life. A good number of the women I slept with were all inter connected friends, and a good number of them caught feelings for me. There were numerous occasions where a big argument of some sort broke out due to this. It’s been two years since i broke up with my high school girlfriend. I’ve had sex with over 20 women. I took none of them emotionally serious. I’ve been under the radar for a while now and feel like i’ve grown a lot these last few months. I started to feel like i had finally gotten that wild side out of my system and I am now trying the dating thing again. I’m dating this girl who is great. Our relationship truly does feel larger than life. I’m immensely happy with her, but despite that, and despite genuinely believing I was mentally mature enough to do this, I still have a built up crave for sex with other women. I can’t stop it and so far I have made it a point to not act on it, it just pisses me off that after all of this time, i’m no better than who i was when i was just a dumb high schooler.