I'm probably going to sound stupid. I have this deep feeling that I'm just kind of a background character in everyone's lives. Its been years since I've had any kind of romantic encounter, and its not for lack of trying. I've been told a lot the last year that I'm a good person to be around and yada yada from coworkers and other people, but I'm still just.... here. No one seeks me out, no one answers when I reach out to new people, its like I'm outside of this bubble. I know I'm not the only one thats lonely, but I'm so fucking tired of having to deal with everything on my own. I want someone to be here when I need help, instead of it just being me. I just want to be wanted. I want to feel like someone other than my mother would miss me if I wasn't here.

I just feel like wasted space. I just want to be wanted.