So, all my life it's just me ruining friendships overtime. Ive lost some really good ones and I still am cribbing over one even after 2 years. Today I think I'm really close to ruining one by talking too much. I don't know when to stop.. like chat goes on for hours and I just don't know when to stop cause I keep on getting replies. At one point I hear I got to go or something and just leave and I start to get anxious. So to sum it up, I don't know how long to chat and I've been losing friends back and forth cause I keep on talking.

Also I've liked this person for some time and I'm really hooked up on to it cause things went south and escalated till me getting called names and blocked, but idk what gets me to move on..I've tried letting my thoughts out but nothing there and I really don't wanna do any bad shit or like wish bad things to them. But also I wanna try everything that helps me move on and I don't know if hurting them cause they did will help me..i sound so sadistic. This sucks